Pretending to be Ok....


Pretending to be ok, when I am not,
Might seem to be a fine idea.
But what goes inside a wounded heart,
Is hard enough to tell.

There are people around you,
Some your friends and some not so,
U might get scared of what they might think so u pretend.
Pretend to be ok, when u r not,
Pretend to be happy, when u r not.

Friends might get worried and enemies might just be not,
For it’s your dismay that caused the consequences and to create it u should have not.....
Pretend, to be someone u r not.

My heart is aching and yet to smile is hard,
To be a bit scared of the future and be brave is hard,
To be angry and acting calm is hard.

Am I being weak or a coward or a crook to pretend? I ask?
My answer is: It takes far more courage to smile on a wounded scar.
If my pretend makes the people around me happy, to think that a disaster I have averted,
I ask why shall I pretend to be not?

The pain and the pretend is getting down to me,
I have become an empty shell, hollow from within.
I try to fill myself up with the pretend....
Shallow is what I have become, to fill it with truth I cannot.

As I die today, I look around me,
With all my friends around me,
I try to search me in their eyes, But I can’t see the real me,
They think of me as someone else.....A person, who is hearty all the time,
Is this the price, I pay for pretending...?

I want to shout and tell the world it’s not me that u could see,
Under that happy face, was a person whose heart bled,
Under that hearty soul, there was a bandaged soul.
But I guess, it too late now, and all I can do is die in peace,
And pretend its ok, when I am Not....

- A Poem by Fizz

5 comments:

  1. Thanks Sakshi...Appreciate your feedback.
    And I did visit your blog. Its is very interesting...All the best to you. Keep writing and reading!!!!!

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  2. "It takes far more courage to smile on a wounded scar." WONDERFUL

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    1. The wounded scar brings a lot of attention too,
      How one copes with it, takes a whole lot of courage....
      And one can just hope one has that courage in themselves and in people they believe...

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  3. it seems to be my end...Pretending to be OK when i m not....

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    1. My Telepathic friend,
      I remember the time I wrote this poem. And if you identify with the poem then my heartfelt sympathies with you. I hope you find the courage to break free from whatever is holding you down. Take care.

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